back with my online diary

god it's been such a long time since i wrote my last post, honestly forgot about this, my baby bara (<3 ahojki milisku) reminded me.

life is a blast. going to tokyo in two days, then visiting milan later this summer, as well as one of the biggest nature parks in croatia, plitvic lakes. what more could i wish for? one of my biggest dreams - traveling - is becoming a reality. so blessed. literally. traveling has always been a thing that was really attractive to me. actually, i may be writing a whole article about the places i had the opportunity to visit, just to keep all of the memories alive for myself.

this last half of a year has been the most stressful period of my life. i had a graduation, that was a lot of studying which i was afraid of at the beginning but then eventually enjoyed it lol. worse than that was getting into a college. my first choice have always been international relations, that was the one i was focused to. as time went my dad talked me into applying into the law school, did it just to please him. approximately in april i found out that i would actually kind of enjoy it cause when i was studying for my final exams and for entering exams for college, questions from law were the easiest ones for me. well, in the end i didn't get to in and ended up just below last people to get in. but no worries, life is not over and i'm definety trying next year, when i'm gonna know from the beggining where i wanna go and focus on that. until then i will be studying the politics, which is one of things i'm interested in, but i don't really know what job are you able to do with master from this one, so i think i'm gonna keep it just as a hobby. hope everything is gonna go as planned.

next thing i hope i will be grateful forever for is my boyfriend. ády, i know you're reading this one cause i was stupid enough to show you this piece of shitty work, so don't blush much and don't get this go into your head that much. but honestly, couldn't do anything without him, i'm so used to having him in my life, he's my best friend, always can make me laugh and always be there to support me. those things are the chosen qualities i appreciate and i'm thankful for the most.

i think that will be it for the update, i hope to be back sooner with the next 'article' but i rather won't promise anything.

bye loves

-A

update

not anything has changed, just my love has finally found me and im happier that ever. i wanted to talk about travelling today. i love it, makes me feel alive, but why is so fucking expensive? i dont even mean that i have it as a problem, but noone is allowed to go with me when its so expensive, thats so worries me the most.. thinking about travelling by myself, my cousin does it. maybe its the best for the adventures youre afterwards leaving with.

its a lifestyle

you live in it.. more likely, i do.
i feel alive, i cant describe my feelings when i listen to hip hop. its like youve got everything you ever wanted. you feel wanted. you feel like youre the best. hip hop gets me so more confident. you see the clothes, dark colours (dont have to be), huge accesories, oversized things and just like.. gooood i love it, i feel alive. i love to pick up clothes when i am about to go somewhere big place. i love to dress to this style to show people what i love. i would love to go to world where evrybody listens to the same genre of music. you gotta be between the ones that adore same thing as you do. so many emotions in hip hop. you can be angry, sad, in love, sentimental or whatever and the song will still have the same rhytm.. most people dont know, but i personally think that in hip hop, theres the biggest amount of emotions. you just need to listen to the words. and when you do, you find yourself in it. you need to let the music get to you, find what you love. i did. its hip hop and the whole hip hop culture around it. thats where i feel like im living. nobody judges, cause everyone is the same or at least understands you. hip hop, i love you.

new world

Let everyone do whatever they want, wear whatever they want and say whatever they want. Dont judge, focus on yourself. Do what makes YOU happy. I wanna change myself, so please just except it. If you will be happy with yourself, than the others can be with (about) you as well. Hip hop is life. Find what makes happy you. I got those things. Find what makes you feel confident.

Just change the stereotips and make new things. This is the new world, you can be whatever the fuck you want in this world. Start working on yourself, like i will. 🙏🏼 

samey.

Lezim na pokoji v Lisabonu. Je to krásné město. Miluju, když tu muzu byt sama a přemýšlet. Sednu si před okno a sleduji jak život běží za okny, jen přemýšlím. Ve středu mela moje láska Samey live stream. Miluju ho. Nikdy jsem nepoznala chytřejšího člověka, člověka, který nad věcmi tolik přemýšlí. Je mu 22 let, většina lidi v jeho věku řeší uplne jiné veci. Jeho mysl je tak čistá a inspirující. On jako člověk me zajíma vic nez cokoliv jiného na světe. Poslední větou z jeho live streamu bylo "a či si z tohto mate odniest iba jednu viec tak tu, že všetko je možné". Když nad tim přemýšlíte, tak je to pravda. Já nad tim přemýšlím každy den vic a vic.. ať uz se to týká čehokoliv. Když neco chcete, zaměříte se na to, pracujete pro to, prijde odměna. Podle me je jeden z největších problému to, ze člověk nevi, jak nad něčím pracovat. Sama to u nějakých věci nevim. Můj život je v poslední době smeska toho nejlepšího a nejhoršího. Momenty, které si budu pamatovat, ať uz ty dobre nebo ty zle. Přijde mi, ze prichazim o své nejbližší, ze se mi vzdalují, ač to neberu uplne za špatnou vec, protože se učím brát věci pozitivně, snazim se vidět to pozitivní i v tomhle, nekdo odejde, jiný prijde. Učím se každy den, učím se milovat vse kolem sebe, byt vděčná, byt vděčná každy den jen za to, ze tu mohu byt. Pro někoho jsou to jen slova, když jsem si tyto věty dříve u někoho četla, tak jsem to nevnimala jako neco důležitého. Musíte se naučit verit tomu, co sami říkáte. Musíte vedet o čem hovoříte a musíte si tim byt 100% jisti. Najdete si osobu, která vas inspiruje. Učte se od ni. Pro me je takovou osobou Samuel Sadiv ❤


Also i wanted to say even more things but i dont know How to describe my feelings in czech. Idk if writing in english will be helpful, but We can try. Sorry for mistakes, not thinking about the grammar rn. Well, ive been thinking about my life a lot lately. I love traveling, but you know, home is home. I could stay in the Best hotel in the city but i would still love to be in my small bed in my even smallest room in CZ. In the past few months, me and me neigbhour have been thinking about how would it be if We have our dream boyfriends, Samey and Dalyb. For someone it might seem really funny, it would for me as well, but its not like we are some kind of crazy fans, We love them as people, everytime We are together We imagine situatons that could happen. Its like you are daydreaming. Its grear in the moment, but then always when i get home i wanna cry, cuz you reslly realize, that chance of this happening is like 1%. But at the other hand, its better than 0%, plus they're just people as well. Same people as We are. You know there is so Many things on my ming right Now. I wanna write myself off here, to give my mind peace, but i dont know what to write as first and i dont even know how to formulize it. Noone but me understands this. Just be happy and greatful and never lost your hope. I really love you, samey . You are something that was missing in my life ❤

i love.. #2

old songs by one direction
taxi 2,3,4
french
max irons
harry styles
my grandma
between the bars by elliott smith
štrůdl
belgium
survivor
twilight
remember me
flipped
sofia by alvaro soler
airplanes
sidney crosby
wiz khalifa

i love.. #1

ASAP Rocky
Samuel Sadiv
mango
stuck in love
traveling
New York
Verík
hip hop
sad by maroon 5
summer
new clothes
shopping
sunsets
are you with me by lost frequencies
Harry Styles
The Mentalist
gossip girl
harry potter
money
alcohol
oceans eleven, twelve
my dad
(sun)glasses
Dresden
new shoes
fancy parfums
cooking
adventures
trips
Kendall Jenner
Drake
J, Cole
Post Malone
Dalyb
Big Seans voice
The Weeknd
Rihanna
Kanye West <3
KUWTK
cry by rihanna
cold case by rihanna
nocturne no.2 by chapin
sleepovers
cigarettes & coffee
simon baker
too young by post malone
vienna by billy joel
21,22 jump street
new nailpolish on my nails
straight hair
good photos
sydney & jessie
charlie <3
pizza
any type of pasta
kylie jenner
sam smith
fights
baggy tshirts
pink underwear
new bras
my bed
a lot of pillows
green tea
tattoes
quotes
teenage drama movies
little pakistan boy dancing (youtube)
wildest dreams by taylor swift
nicki minaj
one day by asaf avidan
nature
black color
rap
being the best